i like being random.
unpredictability is something i crave for, and yet routineness is more safe.
i'm currently happily saving up for my astonmartin by eating happy meals everyday.
i think i am suffering from multiple_personality_disorder, cos my dad says i can take his air_force_one anywhere i like but my mum says i have to carry guns for the Taleban.
well, i am going to be a wax figure for Mdm Tussauds next time.
i said
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
ps27
I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD, in the land of the living. Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.
Ps27.
---12:17 PM---
Monday, November 16, 2009
anticlimax
My final flight test was scheduled this morning. Had my jittery nerves last night and I woke up at 5.30am to be greeted by a whole bunch of low clouds. Planned out the flight and everything, went to find the Chief and off we went.
After taking off, we could see the low clouds werent going to allow us to do much, so we turned back. Oh man, the feeling is so anti-climatic. The whole weekend of gearing up for it suddenly went "poof". And now it's a time of waiting and anticipating.
I don't really know how to describe this feeling. This feeling of all-ready-to-go-home, and now, it's hmm-dunno-how-long-i-have-to-wait feeling.
I'm really amazed at God's timing. Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining. It just so happen that the big bosses are coming in for a visit this week and so the Chief is going to be busy. Moreover, the weather for this week aint exactly summer-fantastic. The timing is immaculate. This whole bunch of stuff may bring frustrating delays. It's really a time of anticipation. And I'm wondering how will God bring this to completion. I just hold on to the faith that God's timing is always right. It's never a day early, never a day late. And all His delays are planned immaculately to always show His glory at the end. It's just up to me, to hold on to this faith and trust that He knows. He knows what's going on, and He knows when's the best. I just really hope that I'll be able to clear it soon.
And now, Let God be God.
'Cause maybe there's another plan
One I still can't see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see~Corrinne May "Everything in its time"...
---1:18 PM---
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
here
Last few flights left.
You know how the stress can build up when you know the completion is really near and yet you don't know whether/when you'll be able to complete it.
I cannot tell you how much I want to pass everything and go back to Singapore.
And have a few months of break before flying this really beautiful aircraft.
The Learjet45!
It's in God's Hands.
---2:41 PM---
Friday, October 23, 2009
trust
it really takes patience to train patience.
when things cant be rushed, they cant.
just like how a farmer wishes so much that his crops will grow and prosper, he cant rush them.
the seeds will never grow if he prods them continuously.
if he disturbs them every day to see if they're growing, they'll never grow healthily.
he can only be patient.
some things are really best left to themselves.
it takes wisdom to be patient, it takes maturity to be patient.
better to surrender, and it gets easier.
do you trust Me?
---4:34 PM---
Sunday, October 11, 2009
easy
life is actually simple.
it's just to love Jesus with all your heart.
just that.
i really wished i could abide by that.
i had a good flight yesterday.
and i am 100% sure that i didnt do it.
God helped me.
it was a pretty sight to be flying over the Perth city and swan river.
one of the instances when i felt, 'wow'.
---9:32 PM---
Thursday, October 01, 2009
many
yeah, it's been some time.
and there's like close to a thousand things i miss about Singapore.
u'll never understand how much i yearn for the sight of Changi Airport, the drive on ECP then to AYE, exit to Clementi Road(or whatever that road is called), turn left and turn right, turn left into the carpark after the Esso (or whatever petrol station that is), park the car in any spot (bird shit or no bird shit prone), take the lift up to 24th floor and open the door.
i really cannot tell you how much i miss that.
---10:45 AM---
Friday, September 04, 2009
cloudy
My training here in Perth involves a lot of waiting (for the instructor to be free, for the weather to be good etc etc). Yet sometimes, it's a mad rush when there's opportunities to fly. This waiting & rushing reminds me of the army phrase "Rush to wait, wait to rush". More importantly, I related very well to the following article. Hope it will encourage all of us to be sensitive to God's leading and not take matters into our own hands.
"Moving With the Cloud
TGIF Today God Is First Volume 1 by Os Hillman
Thursday, September 03 2009
"Whether by day or by night, whenever the cloud lifted, they set out." Numbers 9:21b
God brought the Israelites out of Egypt, and they had to pass through the desert on their way to the Promised Land. God was their guide by means of a cloud that appeared overhead. When it moved, they moved. When it stopped, they stopped - sometimes a day, a week, even a year.
Imagine living with the uncertainty of this situation. One day you work at getting your "house" in order, only to have to pick up the stakes and move. Your ability to plan is totally gone. But even greater is the temptation to move when the cloud did not move because you felt it was time to move. For the Israelites, perhaps the grass was no longer green. Perhaps the water was not easily accessible. Perhaps the bugs were a problem. Whatever the case, they were strictly prohibited from moving if the cloud did not move.
It is still the same today. We are not to move unless the Holy Spirit instructs us to do so. We are not to make that business deal on the basis of whether or not it makes sense, but on the leading of the Holy Spirit's "cloud" in our life. It is a difficult process to move only when we are directed, and to remain if we are not. The pressure is always upon us to move, to plan, to act. But if we act, we may move into a place where the presence of God may not be. Hence, the rub. The Christian workplace believer must learn to move when God says move; it is a sign of complete surrender and dependence on God's Spirit to direct our steps.
Ask God today if you are sitting under His cloud. Or, have you moved when He said stand still? He will show you. "
Anyway, I'm finally in Phase 3. Thank God for leading me through all these while. It has taken much longer than I'd hoped, and the process rougher than I'd liked, but it's testimony that I have to rely on God even more. His ways are higher than my ways, and I guess my plans don't always coincide perfectly with God's. Am still walking on.
---10:05 AM---
Monday, August 10, 2009
waiting
Waiting on God
TGIF Today God Is First Volume 1 by Os Hillman
Monday, August 10 2009"Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; He rises to show you compassion. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for Him!" Isaiah 30:18 Have you ever noticed that God is not in a hurry? It took 40 years for Moses to receive his commission to lead the people out of Egypt. It took 17 years of preparation before Joseph was delivered from slavery and imprisonment. It took 20 years before Jacob was released from Laban's control. Abraham and Sarah were in their old age when they finally received the son of promise, Isaac. So why isn't God in a hurry?
God called each of these servants to accomplish a certain task in His Kingdom, yet He was in no hurry to bring their mission into fulfillment. First, He accomplished what He wanted in them. We are often more focused on outcome than the process that He is accomplishing in our lives each day. When we experience His presence daily, one day we wake up and realize that God has done something special in and through our lives. However, the accomplishment is no longer what excites us. Instead, what excites us is knowing Him. Through those times, we become more acquainted with His love, grace, and power in our lives. When this happens, we are no longer focused on the outcome because the outcome is a result of our walk with Him. It is not the goal of our walk, but the by-product. Hence, when Joseph came to power in Egypt, he probably couldn't have cared less. He had come to a place of complete surrender so that he was not anxious about tomorrow or his circumstances.
This is the lesson for us. We must wait for God's timing and embrace wherever we are in the process. When we find contentment in that place, we begin to experience God in ways we never thought possible.
---7:39 PM---
Friday, July 31, 2009
timing
Talk about God's timing.
We've been enjoying the longest stretch of good weather this whole week. No rain, minimal clouds, low winds. Perfect time to fly and fly and fly. To catch up on all the lost time during the bad rainy weeks that passed.
And then I fell sick for the first time in Jandakot.
Thankfully I did clear some flights in the beginning of the week, but the flu just put me out of action since Wed. I had planned to clear more stuff this week, and I was a bit frustrated that why did I fall sick this week.I was thinking why must I fall sick on this particular week. Especially since my birthday's was on Thursday! (It meant that I spent my 26th birthday feeling horrible and on my bed fighting the illness.)
Then today, I found out the reason.
I was waiting expectantly for my birthday gift from Singapore the whole week. Hehe. I kindof visited the mail table a few times but didnt get anything. Then today, my friend passed me a parcel and this is exactly what my girlfriend had prepared for me.
It was a rattan basket with lots of sweet sweet stuff inside, and it was so apt cos it was packaged like a first aid kid. Obviously, she didnt have any idea I would fall sick this week. She just wanted to package everything inside like a care pack. An innocent birthday gift pack which turned out to be so suitable at this time since I really fell sick!
In the basket, it also contained "CG Pills" which had small little messages written by my caregroup members.
I guess these capsules and pills would not have meant so much if I was healthy and fine. The fact that God made me fall sick this week just makes this whole present take on an additional meaning to it.
Who would have thought falling sick would have such a reason?
Sometimes, when something happens, we just have to walk through it, and sometimes, the reason behind it gets revealed to us.
And again, I'd like to testify that God's timing is always the best.
---7:53 PM---
Friday, July 03, 2009
thanks
things aint pretty at the moment.
struggling with a particular sortie and have been stuck for quite a few weeks, may even come up to a month.
it can be attributed to many reasons, instructor, weather, my own inadequacies.
the feelings of desperation, frustration, depression definitely wells up.
it feels like having a hairy heart, a wanna break free spirit, and even a feeling of giving up.
but despite all this, i'm really glad that i have a God.
a true and living God who can give joy to the heart. who can make things beautiful even when it's rotten. who can assure that He knows the plans He has for me, plans to prosper me and not to harm me, to give me hope and a future. who can make me calm in the midst of a storm. who can show me that there's things to give thanks for even when the chips are down.
somehow, someway or another, it seems like His children have it more difficult. but i guess that's evidence that He's amazing.
because when difficult times come our way, only His grace and His power will shine through all this.
---11:49 AM---
